[def] New me

Hey guys, you all probably know me as Chaos, Ghoul, or Chaotic Stables. I'm wanting to break out of that box a little bit. Here lately, there has been a lot of drama and chaos in my home (I did choose that name for a reason) and it's been wearing down on me a lot. That was a partial reason for my temporary hiatus from EV. Plus I had lost my job and was trying to make ends meet through dA commissions, and I just didn't have time for anything else. Upon coming back, I made a spare (this account) and started new lines. Eventually I will go back to my babs on my main, but not until I can handle caring for 90+ horses a day again.

The chaos in my home is hopefully coming to and end soon, as 3 of the 8 people in our little house are moving out next Friday. And they're the ones who brought all of that garbage with them.

But, anyways, I thought it was time for a change. When they first came in, I'm not gonna lie, I was scared out of my mind. These are the type of people that aren't safe to be around. Though unfortunately, they're my fiance's family, and I don't own this house, so I had no say in it. But here towards the end, I got angry. I went from wanting to run away and move out, to wanting to stand and fight back. Because I wasn't just thinking about myself anymore, I was thinking about everyone else in the house that was also having to deal with that.

I wasn't being suffocated by the chaos anymore. I was being defiant. They didn't want me to be happy, they didn't want me to succeed, so I pushed forward and did both.

tl;dr Chaos/Ghoul/Chaotic Stables etc is now . d e f i a n t . My stables will remain named Chaotic Stables, however, it's only my username that will be going away.

good for you, defiant. I'm happy they'll be leaving soon.

Thank you ♥ I'm glad as well. Just counting down the days until peace comes back...