English, Western, or new sport?

So, as a lot of you may know, I used to do gymnastics, but then made the hard decision to quit. Right after that, I decided I should try going back to horse-back-riding. So I did, but we were kinda being timid with our spendage of money (I know that's not a word but whatever. XD), because our house hadn't yet sold, and on top of that it was holiday season. So I dropped that for a bit. Another reason I stopped riding was because I'm not a huge fan of English. Mind you, I've always seen myself better riding English, but I truthfully hate English and love Western. So recently I have decided to go on a hunt to find Western riding places, but unfortunately, I live in a city, and Western riding isn't common at all. Which means if I want to do horse-riding, I would have to do English. Another weird thing about English and Western for me, is that I happen to be very timid of horses when I'm around English horses, but when I'm around Western horses, I have no fear of anything. The only time I feel comfortable around horses when I'm doing anything English is when I'm riding the horse. And that is mostly because I have become very comfortable on horses, thanks to my old instructor. I don't know if this is because Western horses sometimes tend to be more around 14 hands through 15 hands, and English horses tend to be more like 16-18 hands, lol. Or maybe it is because I feel like there is less space to dodge a horse when I am in an English stable. I also have a tendency to feel like I have to be all-knowing naturally with English (which I know a lot of things about English riding, but I doubt myself a ton) while with Western it's more like, "heck ya I know what I'm doing. But feel free to give me advice!". This could also be a result of some things that happened during my gymnastics career. There's a lot of fears and expectations I put on myself just because of gymnastics. But anyways, down to my point; if I don't ever find a Western riding place here, should I try out English and try to get used to it, or should I look to take up a different sport? I love horse back riding, so I would hate to say "no" to it just because of the style, but at the same time I don't want to be doing something I'm scared of or that I just don't like. What do ya'll think? 

Have you tried more than one English stable in your area? Sometimes it takes a while to click with the right trainer. Perhaps you feel more secure riding western because the saddles have deeper seats?

It sounds like either the English horses you have been around need better ground manners or you could ask to take some ground lessons to improve your confidence around horses.

This isn't really advice, but rather a couple more things to think about.

(If you're looking for a new sport, have you thought about rock climbing? It's my favorite after horseback riding, And people are usually better at it than they think)

It could be. It could also be that I have done Western riding longer, and the Western horses that I was around before I was VERY used to. So it could just be that I don't know the horses well enough yet at the English place. And on top of that I scare myself by seeing videos of people getting kicked by horses. XD 
The instructor that I had/would have for English is great, and I adore her. I love the horse too, except that he has a cyst in his nose, and it bleeds like crazy. The instructor didn't want us to change horses, but if I were to do English I would insist on a different horse (not that I hate the sight of blood, but I've always liked being able to snuggle and pet horses. And he got blood everywhere on his body.) He also didn't like being saddled, and he couldn't be hooked up while he was being saddled either. And so I got stepped on lol.

Rock climbing sounds fun! But I'm not sure I would enjoy it. XD I have a slight fear of heights.

I took lessons for 2 years, and at first they had me in English, which I tolerated but actually hated, but than they found it I rode Western at home so they just put me in Western gear. I think part of why I love Western is it's more wild and fast, where as English events are mostly about a controlled pace and all that, lol! XD but yah, a different horse might help, I myself have never been afraid of horses, even large drafts, so I can't say I know how you feel, but my mom is TERRIFIED of horses. poor her, she's petrified of them and then she winds up with a daughter that loves them and wants to do trick riding. XD

I think that a lot of people like to judge horses based on their size. I have found in my riding experience that the "evil" and naughty horses are actually the ponies/smaller horses. The ponies/smaller horses tend to have a lot more attitude than the larger horses. So, you may just be subconsciously feeling fear for the larger horses because people naturally believe that the bigger the animal, the more dangerous that animal is, which is not always the case. I agree with Marigold that the horses you are around may need some more ground work to help with any bad ground manners they may have.

I ride English, always have and always will, but I have ridden Western here and there and I can definitely say that riding Western gives people a false sense of security because of how large the saddle is. There is more to hang onto and it definitely gives people a confident boost. Riding English is a lot more uptight and I do agree that you get the "I have to be an all-knowing person to actually do good in the English saddle" feeling XD

I would still stick with riding as there is no other sport quite like it. Horses are such a therapeutic and amazing influence on people and I know that my life would be so different without them in it. I am not very good at giving advice, but I would definitely stick with it and find a way for you to be happy!

I have the perfect solution for you. Start riding bareback :) 

Olympea- I love bareback! XD although it kinda hurts sometimes, lol.