It is all catching up with me :(

I have so much going on right now in real life and I have tried staying optimistic but it is all starting to catch up with me now. 

I went to visit my dad tonight with my husband and kids. When we went into his room I had my husband take my kids out the lounge because my dad had pulled his arm bandages off and was scratching at them and his hands and arms were covered in blood. He was really confused after having a rough day yesterday and needing a blood transfusion. It is just hard to see a loved one in that condition. I am also not impressed with the subpar care he is being provided with at this facility. I had a few conversations with the nurse tonight about my concerns as well as making a formal complaint to state this past weekend. I am certified by the state to work in care facilities so I know the basic rules and there are some definitely not being followed.  Knowing he will be gone in a couple of months is rough but I want him to be comfortable and well cared for now. 

The company I worked for for 2 1/2 years sold us to a new company. The transition was Nov 1 and still it is chaotic. They are using the group home I work in as a make shift corporate office as well. One of our staff left with an 8 day notice that left me working 100 hours in 1 week. My lead(the only other person that picks up the slack with me) is also very seriously considering seeking new employment. That will leave me with 2 part timers that don't want to pull any extra weight around there. Nobody is applying because everything is such chaos right now. 

I am going through a custody battle with my youngest sons dad. This has been going on about 20 months now and we have a trial set out for June(an extension this far out is almost unheard of in the courts). It is expensive and stressful. Part of what was concerning was that I had moved so much. The person doing the case study was happy that we have been in the same place 1 1/2 years now. So that was looking good. Then BAM my landlord text me tonight to see if he can show the property to a potential buyer this Friday. This could be even a good thing if the buyer keeps the property as rental and continues to allow pets. If we can't have pets we have to move. It is EXTREMELY hard to find rentals that accept dogs, especially 2, and especially a pit bill mix. Even here I have to carry my own renter's insurance to cover my dog. 

I am just feeling so down right now. Everything is stressing me out. I feel anxious and just overall bad. 

Sorry for such a long post, just had to say this all to someone!

:( *hugs tightly*

No wonder you're so frustrated!!!! *points to PM*

Last edited on 2018-01-17 at 19:45:22 by 💜 Feathered Gold 💜

Sending big warm hugs to you ♥ ♥ ♥ 


I know life can really suck sometimes and divorce//child custody battles can be extremely stressful (the whole thing for my family lasted about 3-4 years), but you just have to stay as positive as possible that things will get better! If you need anything or need to talk please feel free to message me ♥ 

Aww,  that sucks! *gives a huge hug*

Hopefully it all gets sorted out, and I don’t know if you believe in Jesus but if you want I’d be happy to pray for you. If you need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. I know what your going thru with your Dad, I lost my Grandpa July 4th of summer 2017 to cancer. It was very hard, he wasn’t my real grandpa, he was my step grandpa, but he was more of a Grandpa then my real one has ever been or tried to be. And after his death his kids from his first wife (who also died from cancer) have been acting weird and spreading all sorts of rumours (including one about me saying something very hurtful to my cousin and bestie on that side, which I never said or even thought of saying) and I fear the whole family’s gonna fall apart. And I’m struggling to deal with the fact that Grandpa’s really gone. So yah, I know how it feels to know your gonna lose a loved one. :(